Monthly Archives: November 2011

Frankly and Fearlessly


“We write frankly and fearlessly but then we “modify” before we print.” Mark Twain

Have you ever been in a situation at work, blogging, or elsewhere where you start writing something full of passion and conviction, not caring how it sounded because darnit, it’s the truth and they need to hear it!

…only to read over what you wrote and start cutting, rephrasing, and rewriting a more censored and “high road” version of your previous feverish writing endeavor?

I hate having to do that, but I do it anyway. Why? Because I am afraid of what people will think. I’ve thought about it many times in the past. I’ve tried to attribute my compulsive editing to politeness, to my upbringing, to a solid work ethic, etc. All these things may be part of it. And it’s not a bad thing necessarily, especially when writing work emails (who wants to get fired over something they wrote in this economy especially? Not I!) BUT I think there is a very fine line between saying too much, and censoring too much.  And I sometimes censor too much because I am afraid of what people will think of me.

Nobody wants to sounds contrived, regurgitating and rehashing a slew of intricately woven partial truths and someone else’s stories and sayings and platitudes. Everyone wants to be original. They want to reach others and be understood. They want to write something that nobody else thought to write. Come up with the idea nobody else thought of. Publish the story nobody read yet. Creativity is a gift. Originality is a gift. Self-censorship is the enemy of these gifts, when it comes down to it.

I was fortunate to be raised in the good old United States, where individuality and freedom of speech is championed and upheld….but I feel like lately we in the US are giving up these ideals in the name of fear. Fear of being called ignorant, or intolerant. We are no longer able to publicly disagree with someone else’s views if that view is a popular trend on the media’s radar. It has nothing to do with majority rule either. Let’s not kid ourselves. Whatever we read about or hear about on our iPhones or favorite news website or blog becomes the accepted reality once it is endorsed not by a majority, but by a loud and uncensored minority or sub group.  A minority that has a loud and uncensored voice will be heard nonetheless, and often championed, whether or not they are right.

Not sure about that? Let me give you an example. In high school, there was always the group of popular kids, the group of nerds, the group of cheerleaders, and so on and so forth. There were also those that bullied, and those that made a campaign of looking out for the environment. The list goes on, but you get the idea. Whose voice was listened to? The loudest. And usually out of fear rather than truth. You wanted to earn the respect of the popular kids so that you could be socially accepted. You avoided and gave in to the bullies rather than standing up for yourself or telling someone out of fear. The nerds and environmentalists were low on your list unless their cause specifically interested you. They weren’t louder than the popular kids or the bullies. In high school, the loudest voices were heard, not the majorities.

Media works the same way. They give you a juicy story to tantalize your interest, and then run the details to death, even if there is very little to tell, so that your brain is full of information about that story, tricking your mind, essentially, into believing that it’s important to know about. Your brain is confirmed about this because the people at your office or church group or whatever heard the same story over and over and discuss it over the water cooler or after service, etc.

Now here is the clencher: The media is highly censored. Why? They are afraid of losing their audience. They carefully and elaborately concoct stories of interest so that they get good ratings. They know that if they drill a story into your head enough, it will be talked about. the more people talk about it, the more “important” it becomes to talk about it. If you know about it, it seems you are in the club. You are now part of the popular crowd and can be considered socially accepted. And the media was a bully all along.

The media wants to appear frank and fearless. But they modify before they go to print. Likewise, writers of emails and blogs and stories and censor themselves out of fear. So then where does the truth go? At a certain point, with all the censorship, the truth gets lost. The originality goes out the window. It’s just another trend.

I don’t want to be that way. I would rather toe the line on censorship. I’d rather err on the side of caution, but I don’t want to regurgitate the tiredness and trendiness of the media around me. I want to keep my sense of freedom and liberty of speech alive.

How about you?


I would do…nothing

Yesterday after I finished up the essentials such as making dinner, I just decided to do nothing. I felt overwhelmed by all the stuff I had to do at work, and all the stuff I will have to do for Thanksgiving, and said, eff it, i’m taking a nap.


And it was great!!


It was just like on Office Space where he decides to just do nothing…except I didn’t create a computer virus that would rip off my company for a bunch of money…my doing nothing was much more short term and way less criminal. but it still felt awesome! Gotta do that more often.

I'm covered with post-its on the inside...


Today I work at both my jobs, so I’m about halfway through. I had pretzel Hot Pockets for lunch. But I also had an apple for some fruit and fiber…that counts right? Not the healthiest lunch choice, but it was quick, affordable, and ‘eatable’ at my desk while I worked. And that’s okay. I’ll just make sure I go on my 2 miler this evening, and also eat extra veggies with my chicken breast dinner. I’m all about making it work however I can today :)

Also, I have a great Kettlebell workout to look forward to to make up for all the Thanksgiving food this week…


Hooray for Tuesday Trainer, Kettlebell edition! Click the link below to check it out…

New Clothes and Rainy Weekend

I was excited to see that my package from Express arrived this weekend! I realized that I had like, zero sweaters and it’s been cold, so I ordered a couple, and then a couple things that were priced ridiculously low…

Sweater 1

Sweater 2

Sparkly Tank Top (because who can resist sparkly things?)

Red Jersey/Knit dress (Because red dresses are hawt)

Black Patent Leather Heels (3 inch, shorter than normal and for work)

I love getting packages in the mail…it’s my favorite…

Anyway, so Express happened…and then blisters from the black patent heels happened (all part of breaking them in, i’m an ex-ballerina, it was no biggie…there wasn’t even any blood) lol

I went on my usual Saturday 4+ mile run…I caught almost all green lights which was unusual…it made my legs more tired earlier on because there was no stopping…but I powered through it as well as I could. The wind was against me during the last 1-2 mile stretch, but I made it work…The more I run on the weekends, the fewer stops I have to make…I feel like I am almost to a point where I ca start adding a mile or two to my run! :)

I spent the rest of Saturday hanging out with this guy here…

And his guitar…

The we woke up to lots of rain on Sunday morning…we made the most of it with hot cocoa :)

I read more of The Thirteenth Tale while my Fluffy yelled at the TV screen played Modern Warfare 3.

Then I went shopping for Thanksgiving goodies!

I was able to use coupons to save about 40%…not as much as I would have liked to save, but definitely better than nothing!

I got:

  • stuff for pumpkin pie
  • stuff for garlic mashed potatoes
  • stuff for crescent rolls with parm and pancetta
  • regular grocery stuff for the week
I have a lot of cooking to do on Wednesday and then on Thanksgiving up at Grandma’s, but I am looking forward to it! New recipes to try, and old ones to bring back all traditional styles…
For dinner I made a healthier version of spaghetti…apologies for not having photos, but here’s the recipe:
1 jar tomato/basil pasta sauce
1 lb ground turkey
1 package whole wheat spaghetti noodles
grated parmesan cheese
In a large saucepan, bring pasta water to a boil, adding a pinch of salt and olive oil. While waiting for the water to be ready, cook ground turkey on medium/high until cooked through, seasoning with garlic, salt, black pepper, dried basil, and Trader Joes 21 seasoning salute. Drain and add tomato sauce, reducing heat to simmer. By now the pasta water should be boiling…stir in the spaghetti noodles slowly, until covered completely, reduce heat to medium, stirring occasionally. Once pasta is “al dente,” drain, and put pack into pan, adding 1-2 Tb olive oil to keep pasta from sticking. Serve pasta with sauce over the top, garnishing with grated parmesan cheese, and dried basil.

After that we finished the evening with our current Netflix pick: The Lincoln Lawyer…it was pretty good!



hope you all had a great weekend!



Now to get through my workday and then record my Tuesday Trainer Kettlebell video…


speaking of Lindsay, you should go visit her site as she has a Green Mountain Coffee giveaway!